" Sitting on the edge of the bed while Kathrin made some coffee , I dialed his number immediately even though it was late .
‘ Irv , it is Don Felder , ‘ I said , wondering what was so urgent that he’d give me his home number .
‘ Hi , Fingers , ‘ he said , with a sigh . ‘ I have got some bad news . I am afraid the guys have had a meeting , and they have decided to go on without you . ‘
My entire body ran cold as his words lingered in the air , their resonance hitting me in waves . ‘ W – w – what ? ‘ I stammered , my mind tripping and tumbling .
‘ It is nothing to do with your playing , it is nothing to do with you , they just think it is in the best interests of the band If they let you go . ‘
‘ Oh my GOD , Irving , ‘ I said , blood rushing to my head . ‘ They can not do this . What do they mean ? Why are they doing this ? What ………. ? ‘ But the words died on my lips . Tears spurted from my eyes , and I started trembling all over . I felt as if I had been hit by a truck .
Irving told me to calm down and try to get some sleep , but of course I could not . I sat up most of the night with Kathrin , writhing with anxiety . At seven O'Clock in the morning , I called Irving back , hoping to catch him before he went to work , but I could not get hold of him until about three .
' Yup , ' he told me . ' I have spoken to them , and they are determined to go ahead with this . They are gonna send a leter over to your attorney this afternoon , confirming that you are fired . "
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" I listened in disbelief , still unable to take in what I was hearing . ' I just do not understand , ' I said . ' I thought we were meant to be in this together . Forever '
' I know . I know , ' Irving sighed . ' But it just did not work out that way . '
' Irving , ' I said breathlessly , I will do anything , I do not care . Tell them there has been a misunderstanding . I signed their agreements and it is cool . I do not want to be out of the band . "